Forever Yours Chapter 23

Chapter 23

So the Autumn was and went giving the space to winter what had been very stormy so far and it had snowed so much. Almost every day so everyone were busy at the cleaning the front area of their houses. I watched trough the window how Vegeta was cleaning the snow away so that he could make his way to his horse in the stable. I knew that he was strong and more than cable to do it, but I wanted to help him. After all, he cleaned our yard, his mother's yard and then he helped his villagers who needed help.

But every time when I tried to go or sneak out, there was someone who forced me back inside. Maybe they were worried that the baby would die and freeze in me out there... I sighed as I turned to look my knit basket and then the fire in the fireplace, noticing that the woods were ending. This was my change.

I watched and waited Vegeta to go to his mother before I sneaked out and went to get some logs, carrying them carefully inside, placing them close by the fireplace. When I slowly started to stood up and straight myself, I felt hard pain in my stomach what made me bend forward and wrap my arms around my stomach, moaning and panting hard with painful voice.

My breath was trembling as I slowly walked to my chair sitting down, rubbing my stomach gently, trying to steady my breathing. I felt the cold air on my skin when the door opened and shut fast behind my husband who shook snow off on his shoulders.

"Darn that it's cold out there! This darn snowing could finally en--- Kakarot, are you alright?"

He came carefully and slowly few steps closer as I nodded to him few times, sighing that I was okay. His focus turned on the fireplace where my wet foot prints lead and yes, he saw that small log pile with small snow balls. His serious look turned on me and I knew that he was going to rant about that what I did.

"You just had to sneak out to get the logs, didn't you? How many times have I told you not to do work anymore?"

"Should I have wait for you then and let the fire shut down?"

"Well... No, but you could have call me."

I sighed deeply as I closed my eyes turning my head away. I wasn't in the mood of listening him.

"And now look what situation you are in. You sit there, breath heavy and, don't even try to lie, you are in pain. Because of the work."

"No... It's because the baby kicked very hard."

"Kicked...?"

"It has start to kick a lot lately."

"C... Can I try?"

I looked at him as he walked carefully right next to me kneeling down, placing his hand on my stomach. It seemed that he even didn't dare to breath when he held his hand there, feeling baby's movement trough the flesh, skin and clothes. But that shine... That bright shine in his eyes when he felt the movement. It must have been very exciting to him.

"Are you nerves? Afraid?"

"Hm?"

"The birth. After all, this is your first child."

"A little like every woman for sure."

"Hmm, but don't worry. When the time comes, mother will help you like she has help all the other women."

I couldn't help but to smile. To know that Vegeta's mother would be there and help me with the birth... It eased my fear a lot.

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Few days had past and in each day I had more and more pain and the baby had start to kick a lot more harder and often, but luckily it happened then when Vegeta wasn't around. I didn't want to make him worried.

It was dark night and the wind howled outside while the snow was hitting the window. I didn't understand how Vegeta was able to sleep in a night like this... But there he was, sleeping peacefully right next to me but I... I couldn't sleep. This whole day I had have a feeling that something wasn't right. I just knew it somehow.

I closed my eyes and took a deep breath trying to relax and get some sleep but it was then when the hard pain pierced my body and I made loud gasp but Vegeta didn't woke up. He must had been very tired. The pain forced me to breath fast and hard and when I sat slightly up, I felt how the bed under me was wet just like my legs and clothes as well.

Of course I freaked out. I didn't know what was going on so I turned as much as I could and started to shake Vegeta.

"Vegeta, wake up... Ugh, something's wrong."

".... Mmmhhm... Not now, Kakarot..."

"Get up, Vegeta."

".. What...?"

"I- I'm so sorry, but... I think that I wet the bed."

"You did what?!"

Even that everything around us was totally black, I still could feel him to jump to sit up.

"You wet the bed?! Couldn't you go out?"

"Not like that, you idiot...! I think it's something else and --- Uuggh!"

This pain... This pain was so hard in my stomach and I just wanted to push but I held back. I was so scared and this pain... It was making my mind black. I couldn't think clearly or anything. However, I felt my husband's hands on me after that painful moan.

"Kakarot?"

"I... I think it's the baby..."

"D-- don't tell me..."

"Hhhnnggg! It hurts!"

"K-keep it in! I go get my mother!"

"NO!"

In that moment he stopped getting off on the bed like if he would have walk against the tree.

"Don't go... Let her sleep."

"But, Kakarot..."

"Let her sleep, please."

"I can't. I go get her."

"Vegeta, stay. You can help me, I know it. You are my husband..."

"I can't do this, Kakarot! I need to go get her! I never haven't help anyone to give a birth! I don't know what to do!"

"First you could stop screaming and put water to boil above the fireplace."

We both got surprised when we saw Vegeta's mother standing on the door way with the candle, shutting the door behind her.

"It was a good thing that Gods showed me that dream that you would give a birth so I decided to come to check you."

I couldn't believe it. I sighed with happiness as one tear rolled down from the corner of my eye. I was so relieved as I watched her to come more deeper in the room placing that candle on the dinner table while Vegeta moved away, giving space to her mother.

Her eyes studied me until her focus turned on her son who was still standing there behind her.

"Well, where's the boiling water?"

"C-coming!"

He turned around walking in very slightly lighted room to the fireplace, starting to make fire what eventually lightened our house a lot. But of course, Vegeta brought more candles on the table to burn to bring even more light.

He stood behind the table watching me and his mother who was checking me, asking me to take my long pants off what had been made from warm wool. She helped me to take them off pushing me gently down on my back as she spread my legs open.

I could see the blush on Vegeta's face so he, for a some reason, turned to look away. I can admit that it was embarrassing, but I welcomed that help what I got. Water had start to turn to mist slowly so it was a clear sign that it was starting to be warm enough so Vegeta, as a good servant for now, filled one metal bowl with water and brought it on the chair next to the bed as his mother asked to have some big pieces fur or something else.

My husband gave her 3 big elk skins what she placed under my lower body, one in front of her and one was near by, probably for the baby. These pains in me had start to come more and more ofter and harder and Vegeta's mother knew exactly what was going to come.

"Okay, darling. When the next time comes, push."

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I didn't understand what my mother had said to Kakarot but then again I felt that I didn't understand anything about this what was happening. I only saw Kakarot laying on the bed on her back painful expression on her face while my mother was sitting on the chair at the end of the bed, staring between Kakarot's legs.

I snapped out of my blurry mind when I heard Kakarot taking a deep breath as the sweat had start to come on her forehead. I wanted to do something to help but what I could do when I knew nothing what was happening. I never hadn't been in this situation.

Giving birth to the baby had go on for God's sake how long and what I had heard, many women were usually screaming while pushing, but Kakarot... She had remain silent this whole time so far. Never I had heard her to scream while pushing. She only made louder sound when she gasped for air after pushing. I had noticed one thing though and it was the fact that every time when Kakarot pushed, she took very tight hold on the blanket so... Maybe I could help with that.

I stepped closer and closer until I was right next to her so I knelt down and took her hand in mine, smiling to her slightly petting her hair and hand.

"I'm right here, Kakarot. You are doing great, honey." I kissed her sweat covered forehead as I took more firm hold on her hand.

"Also, when you push, squeeze my hand as hard as you want. If that helps that is."

She opened those tired black eyes to the half, giving me small smile. I could tell it already that she had start to get tired and who knows how long this would last. I felt very bad for her... Very bad. After all, this also was my fault that she was in this situation.

I felt how her sweaty hand took more and more tight hold on my hand as she shut her eyes hard, pushing silently once more. My mother kept talking to her but it was their language what I didn't know or understand. I'm sure that my mother courage her to keep pushing and finally I heard her screaming out loud when she gave the last long and probably her hardest push.

Soon the room was filled with the loud cry of baby's and my heart filled with joy but at the same time I was confused. I carefully let go of Kakarot's hand and slowly my unsure steps took me right behind my mother as I took careful look over her shoulder in her lap. There it was. Small little baby getting it's first cleaning by my mother.

"Give me your knife, son."

"?? What for?"

"Just give it, dear."

I was very unsure but I pulled my knife out of it's scabbard and gave it to my mother and when she placed it way too close to the baby, I got scared.

"Mother, don--!"

Before I could finish, she handed my knife back to me smiling.

"You scary cat. I wasn't cutting the baby. Only it's umbilical cord."

The weight left instantly from my heart and shoulders when mother told me what she had done and now I got my curiosity back about the baby. I was about to ask her that could I see the baby better when Kakarot made painful moan before she started to push again.

I basically got shocked. There was going to be another child?! Mother handed crying baby in my arms and I... I was afraid. After all a baby isn't so big or strong. Rather small and fragile. I watched my first child and then Kakarot while she kept pushing and, to me, it seemed that this was going much more faster and easier than the first one.

Of course, seeing a baby getting out of others body... It was far from wonderful or anything good thing to see. Even a dead open corpse looks better to me. I watched how my mother took the child so close to her body that I couldn't see it and when I was going to ask to see the baby, deadly silence suddenly filled the room. It felt that I had turn deaf, nothing was heard. I watched how my mother stood up and walked away in darker corner so I followed her there with sleeping baby in my arms.

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God how much pain I was in... So much pain... I panted hard but I swore that in some moment I heard a child's cry but then it faded away. I didn't know what was going on or what has happened until Vegeta came next to me and I saw it right away that something wasn't right.

I tried to sit up but it hurt like hell so I hissed as Vegeta came next to me helping me back down, petting my hair.

"Kakarot... I know that you are tired and in pain, but I need to tell you something. The birth went great and you gave birth to 2 child and ---"

"I want to... see them... My kids..."

I saw how his Adam's apple jumped when he swallowed hard before continuing.

"... Let me finish first. Like I said, you gave birth to 2 babies. A boy and a girl."

I felt this joy taking over me even that I was very tired and I felt how my smile got wider and wider and I was more than eager to see my babies. My son and my daughter.

"Kakarot, the thing is... The thing is that... One of them..."

He couldn't or even didn't need to continue because I had start to feel it what he wanted to say. What had happen. I felt my eyes starting to burn as tears started to blur my vision and only thing what I could do was shake my head a little, silently sobbing. Vegeta tried to be strong and not to cry even that his eyes were shining and clear but he held his tears. He didn't cry.

Instead he came to me and hugged me, kissing my cheek. No words were needed as we grieved our lost children while Vegeta's mother was with the babies. Babies... Then I remembered that there was another one.

I gently pushed Vegeta away as I sniffed, trying to calm myself down.

"A-and the other one....?"

That small sweet smile told me the good news. That baby was fine, but now I wanted to know which one was which. Vegeta left me and he disappeared in the shadows appearing soon with small human in his arms, wrapped inside of small animal skin.

I couldn't help myself from gasping air as the joy filled my heart. I reached my hands toward the baby as Vegeta handed it to me and when the baby's weight was pressed on my chest... That moment was special. Almost unreal.

Neither one of us said nothing as we were there side by side, petting that black harsh hair what was still little bit wet after the birth.

"Which one this little baby is?"

"... She."

"A girl..? So then it means that the boy..."

He took a deep breath biting his lower lip gently nodding few times. I knew how he felt or at least I thought so, but I couldn't be sure. Losing a son, who he surely would have want to be his follower, was a big hit but at least we had a daughter who surely would become a great leader later in the future.

Our focus turned from the baby girl on Vegeta's mother who came to us from the shadows holding another small baby in her arms what also was wrapped inside the animal fur. I felt how my throat got more tight but I wanted to see the child. I would never have forgive myself for not looking at my son.

Vegeta took our daughter when his mother gave me my son who I held gently against my body. He looked so handsome and like if he was a sleep but his blue lips told me that he wasn't there. He also wasn't breathing. I gave that small creature a gentle hug and a kiss on the forehead, whispering how much I love him before I handed him back to Vegeta's mother.

Sadness on her face was heart breaking. I'm sure that she too had wish for a boy but when her eyes saw her grand daughter, they started to shine and warm loving smile spread on her face. Even that other of our child was gone, we still had another one who we should focus on.

Of course it was heart breaking to know that Gods hadn't allow us to have and keep our boy as well, but we couldn't do anything against Gods will. We just needed to accept it and move forward and be thankful about that what we had.

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That night had been long and the pain had been very bad, but thanks to Vegeta's mother, it had start to ease. She had clean all the blood off from the bed, between my legs and she also had took my pants because she wanted to wash them even that Vegeta and I both resist about that, but she didn't give up so we let her do it... For once.

It was still dark outside and we all were tired about this happening so Vegeta's mother head to her own home, after making sure that we were going to be alright, as Vegeta laid down next to me after placing our baby girl into her own bed what Vegeta had made long time ago. He had been more than fast and eager with it when he had done it, actually.

But we both felt bad about our little boy... It was warmer inside the house than outside so the dead body would have start to smell inside the house so... As hard as it was, we decide to put that body outside in big and strong wooden barrel for so long time until we could keep funeral in the spring time and bury the body. If we would have want to be cruel, we could have throw that small lifeless body into forest to the animals, but we aren't like that...

As tired as we both surely were, we still were awake laying in the bed eyes open staring the ceiling, listening this new sound in the house. Small and short steady breathing near by and that brought a smile on my face. Hearing that small breathing, my daughter's breathing... It was amazing and I still couldn't believe it. I felt how muscular arm came under my head so I instantly turned my face toward Vegeta even that I couldn't see his face but I felt it. He was smiling so I smiled back and just to make sure that my senses were right, I carefully raised my hand on his face, touching it and he indeed was smiling.

"Still awake?"

"Hmm, can't sleep."

"Heh, rough and excited night behind, eh?"

"Hmhhhmm ~ You can say that."

"Are you in pain?"

"No, not really. At least not so much. Your mother herb drink helped."

I felt his warm wet lips on my forehead and the sound of a kiss visited in our house for a short time. My husband kept his chin against the top of my head petting my back gently as I laid on my side, facing him. It felt so good to know that he was there, to feel him there and on top of that, I was so thankful that he had been there that whole time when I gave birth. It also felt weird because in my home village, men never stayed with their wives when they were giving birth.

When my thoughts traveled back in my own home, I remembered my father. Father! He didn't know anything about this! He didn't know that I was now married, he didn't know that I had been pregnant and now I also had a child. The movement of my head made Vegeta lift his head and move it away from me before his low, but very gentle voice reached silently my ears in the darkness.

"You're still awake? You are much more harder to lull to sleep than our baby."

I laughed a little silently as I nuzzled against his neck giving a kiss on his Adam's apple and he liked that, judging by the pleased sound what he made.

"How could I sleep when I have such a man in my bed like you?"

"I'm so irresistible, aren't I?"

"Mmmh, some times."

I kissed his Adam's apple again before I gently started to stroke his muscular arm with my fingertips under that warm animal fur blanket what kept both of us warm from cold.

"... Husband...?"

"Wife."

"Ha ha, silly."

"Mother."

"Stop that."

"You started."

"And I'm trying to continue."

"Then go on."

"You won't let me."

"How come?"

"Because you keep replying on anything what I say."

"So?"

I couldn't help but to laugh silently to this little playful chit chat of ours. I heard my husband laughing silently a little as well so it amused him as well.

"Can I say what I wanted to say now?"

"You can try."

"So you won't let me?"

"I never said that."

"But thought it."

"Maybe."

"Ha ha ha, come on, Vegeta. Let's be little bit more serious now, shall we?"

"Why should we?"

"Because this conversation isn't going anywhere like this."

"I think that this is going on greatly."

I couldn't help but to smile and laugh a little silently again, not waking up the baby of course.

"So, Vegeta, the thing what I wanted to talk about is ---"

"That we should go to sleep."

"No, I wanted to say that I want ---"

"To go to sleep."

"No! I -"

"Need a kiss?"

Before I could reply I was getting one of the best kisses ever. God, how fantastic way Vegeta kissed, how he sucked my lips, giving sometimes small and fast little licks before kissing again. Our silent moans filled the room with the sound of kisses and if I wouldn't had give birth a little while ago, this surely would have go more further and end in very nice way, so to say.

Our hands traveled on each others body giving more pleasure and the feeling of being safe, cared and loved but it needed to end because I wanted to talk even that I loved to be like this with my husband.

I gave him one last kiss before I tried to talk, but he kept talking as well and our nonsense chit chat kept going so I had no other choice but to shut him up by placing my hands on his mouth.

"Now you shut up and listen, silly. I have been trying to tell you that I want to go to see my father."

As I moved my hands away from his mouth, this weird silence filled the room so of course I got scared that had I been keeping my hands on his nose and mouth too long and maybe he had faint, but then again, he would have remove my hands, but then he replied.

"... When?"

"As soon as possible."

"Why?"

"Why? God's sake, Vegeta... He's my father. He has the right to know that I'm alright. That I finally have got married and have a family. And on top of that, my father is now a grand father. Do you really think that he don't have the right to know it?"

"I never said that, but..."

"You are afraid of letting me go, aren't you?"

That long silence told me the truth. He was afraid but why? I loved him, I was loyal to him and I would come back to him after seeing my father and spending some time in my own home. Then I suddenly got this idea. I reached my hands to find his hand and when I found it, I took gentle hold of it petting it as lovely way as I could.

"If you don't want me to go alone... Then why don't you come with me? I would love to show you to my father."

"Are you nuts? What do you think he would do when he would see me? After all I attacked in his village with my men and kidnapped his daughter."

"He will understand because it was Gods will. If it wouldn't had been, you never wouldn't had find and attack in that village and kidnap me. It all happened because it was meant to happen."

"Hmm... You talk smart for being a woman."

"Well, one of us needs to be the smart one."

I heard his amused laugh in the dark and it made me smile, easing these emotions what I had create with my question. When the laugh ended I heard his long and deep sigh as his arms find their way around me, pulling me more closer into his arms.

"... I can't deny that from you."

"Hm?"

"You can go to see your father when you have heal enough. But you won't go there alone."

"Oh, thank you so much!"

I grabbed on his cheeks and kissed him on the lips maybe a little harder than I needed, but oh well ~ I was just so happy.

"So you will come with me?"

"... Can't promise anything."

"So you won't? Why?"

"I told you already. I don't want to start to fight with your father."

"Oh, come on. Dad isn't so bad and he won't start a fight. Trust me. Beside... It would mean so much to me that you two would meet."

His sigh had a little growl effect in it this time so I knew that I was pushing this too far so I decided to quit. I didn't want to piss him off after all.

"Fine. I come with you but we go then when the winter isn't so bad anymore so that we can take our daughter with us."

"Really?"

"Would I lie to you about this?"

My heart was racing as I hugged my husband more tight filled with joy. I couldn't believe that I would get a change to go to see my father after all these years and with my husband and daughter as well. That would be a great day and surprise him good! But then this guilty feeling filled me... For a some reason it felt wrong to start to live my happy life this soon when I had a dead baby outside of the house in the barrel on the house's backside.

Even that I was happy and all, I still had strong sadness in me but I fought against it as much as I could. I wanted to be strong and focus on my girl instead of collapsing and crying after my son, but I knew it already that when his funeral would come... I wouldn't be able to stop myself for collapsing.

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