Passed away today with the help of the vet. I came home yesterday evening from Helsinki and first thing what I noticed was Jin (my pet rat) in his case and he wasn't moving like he normally did. He walked so badly when he came closer toward me in his cage and then I saw that his right back leg didn't work at all. He was dragging it after him. Plus his right eye's area was hairless, red and his eye was bloody red and his other eye leaked. Then when the evening went on I noticed that he had start to drag his left back leg as well. I would have call to a vet yesterday already but all the vets were closed so I needed to wait to this morning. I got the time for today in the middle of the day and I took him to the vet.
However the vet wasn't that same nice woman who have serve me before. This woman wet was more cold and she was going to put Jin down with a shot so I asked; "Aren't you going to use the gas like other vets?" and I was going to explain it to her how other vet have been putting down my pets and she just took Jin with his travel box and said that she will go and use the gas then and she went in another room without letting me finish or say bye to Jin... The other vet usually have put some strong sleeping liquid on cotton ball and put it in a big box, then put the animal in there and close the box so that the animal breaths the sleeping liquid's scent and falls asleep. After that they have go to the backroom and give them the gas. PLUS the other vet has ALWAYS listen the heartbeat in front of me from my animal after putting it to sleep but this vet didn't.
But still the main point is that Jin didn't need to suffer anymore and now he's with his brother, Hin, in spirit world running wild and free
And I don't feel sad or bad at all (I haven't even cry any tear at all) about his death so please, don't say you are sorry, because he's in a better place where he's happy and I'm happy because I know that fact
Now I still have 3 hamsters. 1 boy and 2 girls ~ Anwar, Akila and Fran
My other news are that my friend, who stays a lot with me in my apartment, are looking apartment from Helsinki together! I'm so happy and excited about it! Moving and living in Helsinki alone by yourself is VERY expensive so it comes a lot more cheaper to live together with someone so that you can share the rent and other bills. Plus in Helsinki one small apartment's rent (to single person) can cost almost as much as a rent in big apartment what has been meant for 3 people (and there's A LOT of this kind of big apartments free in Helsinki) so my friend and I are looking for an apartment to 3 person so that we would have our own rooms and space to all of our stuffs. And I have the gut feeling that we would find and get apartment in this year so that we would move either in summer or autumn. But we will see how it goes! I'm so looking forward to this because yesterday, when I came back to my apartment my feelings were so weird and my thoughts were; "Why am I here? What is this place? I don't belong here."
So that's a pretty strong sign to me that this place isn't my 'home' anymore and this is a place where I shouldn't be anymore so it's a time to move to a place where I belong and where I feel like I have come home and that place is Helsinki.
But I keep you guys (if anyone even reads my journals anymore) updated when something happens!
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and my brother
Part of my friends and watchers ^w^